Please do not read if you are inconsiderate, judgemental or if this has the possibility of triggering you.
Please remember all names have been changed for data protection reasons.
A quick recap:
In part 2, I explained that Martin had gotten me pregnant at the age of 15. I found this out by going to A&E as I was suffering with vomiting. We later found out that I am a survivor Hyperemesis Gravidarum (the same as Kate Middleton). Which is a maternal liver disease which causes persistent vomiting.
My parents were not aware that I was involved with Martin. So when they found out I was pregnant, it came as a huge shock as me and the boyfriend I had, split in year 8. I spoke to Martin and told him that I was pregnant and he instantly told me to tell my parents it was someone from school and that he was 15 too. I didn’t realise he & I having sex was classed as statutory rape. I thought it was absolutely fine. He told me that we’d get in a lot of trouble if they knew his real age and name, so I went along with what he said.
Mum, Dad & I went into school the next day and spoke to my head of house to explain the situation. I lied and told her it was someone in my year. The day after this, I had a scan to check there wasn’t anything wrong.
I had a big decision to make. Keep the pregnancy or have a termination. Obviously, still completely manipulated by Martin, I went to him so we could both make the decision. He had previously told me he couldn’t have children so his initial reaction was “Keep the baby, this could be my only chance”. But once this settled down and he realised how wrong this was, he came to my front door and screamed at me to have a termination. I was only 15, I was still at school and I knew I wasn’t ready to be a mother yet.
No body wants to get a termination but sometimes it’s needed. My parents were supportive with whichever decision I made. I spent a couple of weeks deciding what to do. So we went to a clinic near London and I had the termination. This decision hurt, as it would anyone. It was honestly the hardest decision I’ve ever made but I don’t regret it. I had the best intentions for myself & the life inside me. I’ll never forget it & even now I still have the scan notes. At one point that group of cells was a part of me.
The termination causes you to have a three week long, heavy period. While I was experiencing this, I was off school. I received a message from Martin saying something along the lines of “I’m sorry about shouting at you the other day, I’m on my way over with food and films.”
The next post can potentially be very triggering so please be aware when you read it.
With regards to a termination, if you have any comments or questions feel free to message me on instagram. I will be more than happy to answer them. This was a very difficult time in my life but I feel expressing what has happened to me, can help others speak out & get support.
I’m always a message away!